I have changed my user-name on a few blogs & forums I go to. It's Justice4Georgann ... eventually, I will close this account and open a new one and just copy what I have already posted and just paste it under the new account.

I've been following a Murder trial in Northport, FL on a 21 year old mother of 2 young children, who was abducted from her home, raped and Shot to death. Her name was Denise Amber Lee. I know what that poor family is going though, and those babies will only know their mother by photo or video. The SOB who took her life's name was Michael King ... and from the way he looks ... he's PURE EVIL! They found his semen in & on her, her blood in & on his car, he was seen by a few people after hearing a woman scream in his car at a red light. He is GUILTY! And justice will be served in just a few days here on earth. As far as justice being served in heaven ... it may happen sooner rather than later, because they are seeking the death penalty!

Justice will also be served for Georgann. There was a murder in Manatee County, Fl last month, and the detectives are keeping hush hush about it. Therr were surveilance camara's in the area, and lots of evidence. I'm praying that his DNA they found in that home, matches the DNA they found in Georgann's. It's not looking so grim anymore. Hopefully ... we will hear of them apphrehending a suspect in the murder of Georgann Lee Smith & Kathleen Briles died: August 3rd 2009

I have no support what-so-ever in regards to my emotional well-being. I love my mother-in-law, but she wants me to basically not speak about my sister, not keep the detective's moving on the case etc etc. The day we walked out of the detective's office in April, they specifically told us to keep checking in with them ... because they get so busy at time, they forget to call. Well today, I spoke to the lead detective & she was wondering why Sharon & me haven't been in touch with her. No one in my family, except Cathryn, understands what I'm going through. No one in my husbands family have ever lost 2 siblings in less than 2 years apart, no one in my husbands family have lost a sibling to murder. I was the one who had to deal with the blow before anyone else, because the Under-Sheriff came to me directly. I was the one who was told, my little sister's BRAINS were on the floor because of the brutality of her beating. No one can tell me how I should feel or how to express my emotions. I cannot bottle them up inside (put them in a file in my brain and move on.) Maybe in a year, it will be different ... but it has only been 4 months since she was killed. Am I not supposed to fight for her rights?? Am I not supposed to mourn her loss? Am I not supposed to be so pissed that I want to clobber somebody? I wish people could be in my shoes from April 7th, until now ... and tell me how they feel. I have been through so much loss in my lifetime. My father, when I was 14, my mother & stepfather when I was 23, favorite aunts, uncles, 2 sister's, a brother-in-law who committed suicide 5 years ago. I know what loss is ... and this one loss of my sister cannot be compared to any of the others!

NO, he has not been caught yet, they still don't have a clue who did it!

I've posted a huge entry this evening, but then it somehow went poof. I'm not going to rewrite it! I'm going to take a long, hot bubble bath with candles, and relax!

I bid you all a good evening!

It is so hard to believe that is has been nearly 4 months since Georgann's murder, she was actually killed on April 5th (Palm Sunday) but her body wasn't found until the 6th. They were unable to give us an exact time and date, but I know it happened on that Sunday, because she called me the day before & her girlfriend seen her that evening. We have yet to hear from the detectives on the case. We have no clue if they have any leads or anything. I'm sure if it was one of their family members who was killed, they'd be right on top of the matter. This is turning into a "Cold Case!" I used to love to watch shows like that, but now that it has happened to my beloved sister's ... I hate watching any show that has murder in it. I wish I was in law enforcement, I'd be hunting this SOB down day & night. Lord only knows how many other women he has violated or killed before Georgann's death, up till now. I'm sure he has moved on, possibly to a different state & is doing this again, but what I don't understand is if he was a crack cocaine addict (As some of his victims have stated) how could he afford to move anywhere? Something else to ponder! Also, how could these women give different descriptions of their attacker, unless there were actually 2 men who were in cahoots with each other. That is a very good possibility! So what about these 3 bozo's who attacked this woman ... well, it was actually 2, I believe one was a woman (The driver?) Are the FBI and or Detectives running DNA analysis on any of them?? It is so frustrating. They still have my sisters belongings in their possession ... one of them is my father's wedding band that she wore on a chain as a necklace. They stated that the crime lab could only accept 5 articles at a time for analysis. Well how much crap did they take that belonged to her??? I want my dad's ring back! Four months should be enough time to run tests. I wish she would appear miraculously and tell me who did it, so we could put the evidence together to catch him. There are so many unanswered questions, most of them are from law enforcement. Even though she was our sister, they are not allowed to disclose certain evidence or information that could interfere with the case. I want answers & I do want them now! I am literally making myself crazy trying to come up with theories on who, or why. As a result of this ... I have to take so many different types of meds for my Blood Pressure, Anxiety, Depression, Ambien, so I don't keep having nighmares and to help me fall asleep. I keep having this dream over and over ... images of the brutality that was used, of her beautiful face being unrecognizable. It was apparently so bad, we had to cremate her, and not be able to view her body before hand. From what I was told by my elder sister ... Georgann was raped in a horrible manner. She didn't want to tell me too many details because I always freak out. Well, this didn't freak me out ... it made me utterly sick, and pissed off so bad, that if the monster who had done this was standing before me ... I'd castrate him personally! I hate him ........ I hate him for tearing my family apart ....... I hate him for hurting my precious Georgann ....... I hate him and feel he doesn't deserve to take another breath, but then if he's caught and executed ... he takes the easy way out! I want him to feel PAIN ... pain like he has never known existed. I want him to suffer forever. I stated awhile back that with me being a Christian, I would try to forgive him ... but I honestly don't know how at this time. Maybe on down the road I will, but not until justice is served!

I've been doing nothing, but cry for the past hour or so as I uploaded this video my brother-in-law made in memory of Georgann. This month will be difficult to get through. My mother's & auntie's birthday would have been August 9th. My mother died in November of 92 & my auntie died in 2002. Then there is my sister's marriage to her first husband, Tom (August 9th) he died October 2003. I miss my daddy terribly, my mom, my sister, Kimmie & now, Georgann. It's so hard to believe I've had 2 sister's die in less than 2 years apart ... both of them very young. I cheated death twice with both of my car accidents ... but yet I'm left to grieve the loss of those before me. I want peace in my life ... I need closure, but I'm not ready to let go just yet. I've been tempted to go outside in my memorial garden and dig my 2 sisters ashes back up and bring them inside with me. I know it sounds so morbid, but I hurt so badly. People just don't understand this unbearable pain that I'm going through. They still haven't found the person responsible for murdering Georgann, they probably never will ... so for now, I continue to leave it in God's hands!

I just don't understand why one minute I'm laughing, and the next ... I'm crying so hard I feel like my heart is being ripped out. Why does it have to hurt so bad, and when the hell am I going to stop thinking about her. I know it's still too soon after Georgann's murder, but I just can't take it anymore. I can't talk to Doug anymore because he feels that I should be over this by now since she was killed in the beginning of April. I just don't want to talk to anyone about it because I bust out crying all over again. I've been thinking about her so much lately. Doug and me have been going fishing out on Grand Traverse Bay ... Georgann used to love to fish. So now every time we're out there ... I think about her and become depressed. I WANT HER BACK! That bastard who killed her is long gone. They have absolutely nothing as far as suspects are concerned. I will never have closure until he is found and tried. I wasn't able to see her because she was so messed up after he brutally beat her with her own baseball bat (all because of him being a crack cocaine addict is what the detectives say is what the other victims are saying?) I don't by that shit for a minute! He is merely a woman hater ... plain and simple. I wish they would catch him and let me in his cell with the same baseball bat that he used to kill my sweet little sister. I would pulverize the bastard. I know with me being a Christian ... I'm supposed to not hate, but right now with the emotions I'm having ... I hate him worse than anything and I wish he were dead!

I miss hearing Georgann's laugh ... and I'm to the point where I'm forgetting what her voice sounded like. Every photo I find of her (As an adult) I have to scan onto photo paper & place in a frame. My doctor now says I have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder)

When will the grieving end, or at least get better??? I am now beginning to hate people when they express their sympathy, and tell me how it will get easier. None of my friend's or Georgann's has never had a loved one murdered, how could they possibly know what I'm going through. I have not spoke to my only surviving sibling (sister) since Kim & Georgann's memorial), so this is depressing me as well. She has a birthday coming up on July 19. I've sent her out a card ... hopefully I will hear from her.

Well, I think all I'm doing is muttering away with no clue as to what I'm saying. I am just so upset right now ... I don't think anything could bring me out of this tonight ... so I'm going to close for now. I haven't even been able to work on my novel since before her death, but yet I can write about how pissed off I am to the whole world ... and pissed off I am!

Arrivaderci!

I do have so much to catch up on here. I write daily in my journal, but I don't update it on here ... so eventually I will get to that.

Today was a day from hell for me, actually this whole week with Michael Jackson's Memorial etc etc. My mental stability is beginning to diminish, even though I'm taking medication to calm my nerves & for my blood pressure. I was completely normal until I read that article about the home invasion attacker, who has possibly moved on. I pray for the sake of others that he doesn't take his vengeance out on anymore vulnerable women. We already know that he is a woman hater, but how far will he go? He's already committed one brutal murder, who's to say he won't become a serial killer/rapist in another town. God forbid this happens. I'm having a really hard time coping with my loss. First it was Kimmie & now Georgann. They have both finally been laid to rest, but I feel so empty inside, selfish. I know that they are only ashes and are buried into the earth, but I want them both back up on my fireplace mantle where I spoke with them daily, at lease with Kim, until Sharon brought Georgann here for the buriel. Now I don't have either of them. Before Kim died June 13, 2007 ... she had a trach tube in and couldn't speak with me over the phone,  I wan unable to communicate with her for the last 4 months of her life, and then Jesus called her home. Georgann emailed me the night before her murder & called, but I was "Too Busy" to answer either, now the guilt has set in. I know I can't change the past, but I pray that I can forgive myself for what I'd done by not speaking with her. I looked at the memory in my landline phone today, and the third one down is Georgann's phone number. I just don't want to let go! I know that if I were to dial that number it will give me a message of it being disconnected. But if the Feds kept her phone on in case a lead would come in ... I'd hear her voice again. I sometimes HATE how are lives have changed in a blink of an eye. There were 4 of us born from 1956 until 1971 ... now, there are only 2 of us siblings left. Just Sharon & me. Our Uncle Dick more or less abandoned us ... I haven't spoken to him since the day we found out that Georgann had died. So he can go piss up a rope for all I care. We have no other blood relatives living, except for the riffraff on mom's side in the bayou of Louisianna that are missing teeth, and what are there ... are black with decay. They are not law abiding citizens and I want nothing to do with any of them!

Anyhow, if you get a chance to read this post, it may help you to understand why I'm feeling the way I am. He spells my sisters name Georgann, but it's actually Georgann Lee Smith!

I promise to update my other entries from the past few weeks!


www.billwarnerpi.com/2009/07/sarasota-home-invasion-on-holiday-drive.html

It's been a few days since my last entry. Not a single moment goes by that I don't think about all the loss I've had in my life. My stepmother called. I'm not sure if I posted this in previous posts, but the day they all left here a couple weeks back; my step-brother's wife, Tracy's, grandmother died & then my stepmom later found out that evening that her brother had also died on the same day. It is just mind boggling, because we had just laid Kimmie & Georgann to rest the day before. I know without a doubt that the end of the age is upon us. With all the rumors of war, disease, famine, droughts, natural disasters, etc etc... Christ will be coming for us soon. My sister's in a sense, are lucky to be in a place of total peace, compared to what type of world we have to live in. I'm finally beginning to see that I will never physically hear my sisters speak to me again, or be able to hug them and tell them how much they are loved ... but I will always have a special place in my heart that no one can fill except Kim & Georgann, for they will be with me always in spirit forever. I will always have wonderful memories of both. I can honestly say that I did have a wonderful relationship with them and also my big sister Sharon (even though she is 10 years my senior) but never acted it. She and I used to live together & party together, but that was a long time ago ... and boy have we both changed for the better! She's now married to a wonderful man (Not sure how she became lucky enough to marry a Southern Baptist Preacher!) but I'm greatful that she has found her soulmate here on earth! Doug is doing a little better. Not drinking like a fish like he has been. We all keep praying that he will surrender his life to Christ, that is the only thing that will change his life!

Samuel, our son & his band (Christian) "Caedmons Avenue" will be traveling to Virginia to perform in the near future. He is setting it up with my Brother-In-Law. I have been blessed by God for my children, they are such an inspiration to others & to me. I am extremely proud to be their mother!



Here are photo's of my beautiful sister's. The first one is Kimmie & the second is Georgann.

Today was not a very good day for me. I know it's been quite some time since my last post. I've been trying to keep off here & doing more around the house in order to take my mind off things. We had Cathryn's graduation & party. Mom (Lillian), Gary, Sharon, James, TJ, Grandma Donna & Grandpa David and the rest of my immediate family laid both of my sister's to rest. That was the most difficult thing in the world to do. Kimmie died from Sepsis & Georgann was slain. I placed their ashes in their graves (since they were cremated), but once Gary finished the ceremony (S. Baptist Minister & Brother-In-Law) Sharon, Brendan, Mom & me covered their graves with the earth. I think it was harder on me then because it was final. Before, I had Kim's ashes on our fireplace mantle since I brought her back from Ohio. I spoke to her all the time, even though I knew her soul is in Heaven ... but that body was once part of me (my blood that is) ... Georgann on the other hand had been with Sharon till she and Gary traveled here from Virginia. We were planning all along to have a memorial for Kimmie when Cathryn graduated ... and she stated in her last will & testament that all three of us sisters must be present for her burial (which is next to our biological mother, Cathryn.) Well, little did we know Georgann would be joining her. It's bad enough to lose one sister, but two is indescribable. I pray that when the Lord calls me home ... it is before my sister, Sharon, because there is no way I would be able to handle burying my only sister that's left. I remember many years ago what our mother said "I want you girls to promise me that you will always stay together!" Well, stay together we are ... at least two of them live with me in my front flower garden, alongside my mom & step-father, Sam.

They still have no leads on Georgann's murderer, to be honest ... I don't think they will ever apprehend the man. He has attacked other women since my sister ... the latest was on Siesta Key, in a condo (What I'd like to know is how he was able to get into this building!) No one has been slain except for my sister, but she was the only one who fought back, and we believe she was the only one who was able to pull his mask off and he wanted no witnesses, so that's why he killed her!

There was a home invasion attack in Bradenton where a woman was pistol whipped & her 10 year old daughter was punched in the face. Now I don't believe this home invasion is related, but anyone who harms a child needs to be put away for life!

My the Lord be with all who read my journal!

Well, it's now officially been 2 months since my little sister (37), Georgann, was brutally taken from us. I think the shock has worn off, but real anger has filled the void. I want this monster caught so badly, that it is honestly containing all my thoughts and energy. I know God will deal with him in his own time ... but what I want to know is When???  Do we have to witness on the news another middle aged woman who was tied, raped & beaten ... which I've now lost count on how many women he terrorized & beat. I know I shouldn't be saying this, but my sister actually made out better than all the other women who was accosted by the monster. She will never have to relive being brutally beaten, and getting her head & face bashed in, or raped ... because she is now in Heaven where there is no sorrow or pain. These ladies will have to endure their physical & mental anguish, and fear for the rest of their lives. I pray that they find him before another woman is harmed, and God judges him accordingly. I miss Georgann so much ... it is still so surreal that she is gone. I miss us both holding our phones up to speakers to play that special song we just wrote or heard from 1,700 miles away. I miss the laughter and tears. I miss the reminiesing of family. I miss her smile, and the way she used to roll her eyes at me when I'd say something stupid. All 3 of my sisters were my best friend's ... now I have one left, and this has all taken place in a little less than 2 years. How long will I have my eldest sister in my life, or vice versa? I may be called home before her, but if she goes before me. I will die broken and lonely, because I know for a fact I can't possibly live my life without my sister in it. It was a nightmare losing Kim to a horrible disease/infection, and then with Georgann being murdered ... it is unbearable. I know God gives us trials to go through, but I honestly can't handle anymore. I feel them both with me in spirit, but I want to see & hear them again (I WANT MY SISTER'S BACK!) Yes, I'm being very selfish because I know that they are beyond happy where they are (Walking side by side with Jesus) 

Well, I'm in the process of placing a song up of me singing "I Will Rise" by Chris Tomlin. I found the music w/o lyrics today, so we will see how I do. My dear brother-in-law made a memory disc of Georgann & that was the song that played.

What in the world is wrong with the system? There were 9 people attacked & 1 killed (my sister!) I can't possibly believe they don't have a darn suspect. I'm half tempted to call a really good friend of ours (who is the elected Sheriff in our county!) and see if he can check on things for me. No one is calling us and it is really upsetting me. They still have items that my sister was wearing when she was murdered that they sent in for DNA. Now I know they are only supposed to send in 5 items at a time, but this is rediculous. She wore my pops wedding band around her neck. I'm praying they have that, because if not ... this killer best hope I don't get to him first. My daughter has my mothers wedding ring, only because Georgann gave it to her. Both Pop & Mom died in "92 - 93". Some people seem to have forgotten that my sister was murdered on April 6th, 2009 ... but it is so fresh in my mind. I know I shouldn't say this because I am a child of God, but I want to be put in the same room with this man, holding my sisters baseball bat, and let me have at him. I wouldn't hit him in the head or kill him like he did to Georgann, but I would definitely make it so he would never be able to think of wanting sex again, I'd break his knee caps, his hip bones, and whatever else I could break, so he could live the rest of his sorry life in a wheelchair.

I can't understand why I'm becoming so angry, I don't hate him, but I want to severely maim him.

I was possibly going to see her this month for Cathryn's Graduation ... she was going to do her best to get here ... and now none of us will never see her again (except in Heaven).
We couldn't even have a funeral for her because of her being so messed up ... we could only have a memorial service, and that was even after she was cremated (The monster even deprived us from seeing her to say goodbye!)

The FBI & Task Force have to find him ... I'm desperate for them to find him...........

I cannot have CLOSURE until he is off the street, then I can truly mourn my loss, and let her go (but never ever forget)

Well, today was Mother's Day! It was actually a good day for me. I did quite a bit of baking, and took Poppy seed bread down to my mother-in-law's. Bren & I dug up one of my Tiger Lily plants and took it down to the neighbors, since her kids never call or send her anything for Mother's Day! I actually have a lot of mothers in my neighborhood :) Anyhow, it made her day to receive that gift, and also mine as well for thinking to give it to her. That is how I am ... I would give anything just to help someone, or make them happy.

Now Douglas surprised me ... he had no ALCOHOL today, what a blessing that was, it was wonderful to have him back!

My ankle is still bothering me, but not as bad as I thought it would. I had a really hard time walking on it this am, but as the day wore on ... it became a bit easier to maneuver around the house.

Today was the first day in weeks that I really didn't think about Georgann until now ... but I'm ok. I know it is going to be difficult, but as long as I have Jesus ... he will make the pain and longing lessen for me (Even though I will forever have this feeling, it won't be horrible forever)

I am very tired this evening, so I'm going to close every evening from now on with a daily devotional.






May 10, 2009
I will bless the LORD who guides me.

Wonderful Counselor. Good advice and success belong to me. Insight and strength are mine. Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path. Trust the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your paths.

I know, LORD, that a person's life is not his own. No one is able to plan his own course. You will hear a voice say, "This is the way; turn around and walk here." Commit your work to the LORD, and then your plans will succeed. How can we understand the road we travel? It is the LORD who directs our steps.

You will keep on guiding me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Even when I walk through the dark valley of death, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. For that is what God is like. He is our God forever and ever, and he will be our guide until we die.

(Psalm 16:7)
(Isaiah 9:6)
(Proverbs 8:14)
(Psalm 119:105)
(Proverbs 3:5-6)
(Jeremiah 10:23)
(Isaiah 30:21)
(Proverbs 16:3)
(Proverbs 20:24)
(Psalm 73:24)
(Psalm 23:4)
Psalm 48:14)

I hit the memory button today on the phone to call Doug, and when I did ... I noticed Georgann's name is still listed under his. That brought on a new bought of tears! I don't ever want to delete it. I had 6 voice mail messages that I'd saved right before she died. I was going to record them onto a disc so I could listen to her voice when I began to miss her. We went to Florida for her memorial & to clean out her rented home ... and when I'd came back the phone company had already deleted them (They only save messages for 14 days!) I was so very upset. There is so much I wanted to tell her, but didn't. Mothers Day is tomorrow (Thankfully she had no children) but it is not a day that I want to celebrate. I'm dreading the holiday season, especially Christmas. That was her favorite holiday! I remember a time where our father was playing a song on the organ "Tell Santy I Live In A Shanty" Georgann & I would sing right along with him. She had her photo taken and put that song title on the front of it.

This was the photo, but I cut out the text for the memory board we made of her.


 

She was such a cutie! It is still hard to believe that she is gone. I keep thinking one day I will wake up and this will be nothing but a bad nightmare!

I love you Georgann & I always will!

I read this article today, and it sort of ticked me off.




FBI To Help Investigate And Profile Sarasota Area Home Invasions

As Of April 15th, 2009, But No Profile Has Been Released To The Public, Why The Big Delay ?

"The Sarasota County Sheriff's Department works very closely with the Sarasota office of the FBI, several Sarasota County Sheriff's Department detectives work on Joint Task Force Teams out of the Sarasota FBI office, how does the Sarasota County Sheriff's Department know so adamantly that the suspect in a composite sketch released by Manatee County investigators is the wrong guy, do they have a suspect in the Sarasota Home invasions, information that they are not sharing with the Manatee County Sheriff's Department ?

The general public in the Sarasota Bradenton area deserves to know, (to be able to protect themselves), of a possible suspect description or at least a detailed profile of this possible suspect who appears to remain at large."

Bill Warner
private investigator

If these people have a suspect, and are waiting on this monster to make his next move ... I'm going to be so "HOT!" How many more people will have to die before he is taken into custody?

Or how many more 84 year old women is this bastard going to rape ... I'm sorry, but this is just plain sick. My heart goes out to ALL the victims, even though my little sister was the only one who was murdered ... "I feel he killed her because she was beating the crap out of him, and he grabbed the closest thing to him which was her baseball bat!" If the bat wasn't lying around, my sister could have killed him & he did feel threatened. She was considered a "Lethal Weapon" because of her multiple degrees as a Black Belt in Martial Arts. Georgann will always be a hero in my eyes!

I have to get out of this house before I go mad. I'm a home maker until Brendan starts Kindergarten (at least I hope) There is only so much one can do during the day, and to me it's the same ole stuff day after day. I've always wanted to travel overseas to my families home countries (England, Wales, Ireland) I would love to sit on the moor of one of these great countries surrounded by Heather (in bloom) and the smell of peat moss, and pines. Or recline in a field of wildflowers as I jot my notes down for a new inspirational romance novel. It sounds so serene & too good be come true!

Tomorrow is the 1 month Sadversary of Georgann's death ... I'm not sure if I will be able to handle it. If you think about it though, she actually died on the 5th of April, but they didn't discover her body until the next day ... the 6th. I will never look at Palm Sunday the same again either. That was the day she died. I have a Bible Book Marker that my Sunday School Teacher of many moons ago gave me the evening of the reception. I will forever cherrish this too Harriette!
 

Safely Home

I am home in Heaven,

Dear ones:
Oh, so happy
And so bright!
There is perfect
Joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.
All the pain
And grief is over.
Every restless
Tossing passed;
I am now at peace forever
Safely Home
In Heaven
At Last.

Psalm 115:16 (New King James Version)

 ¹⁶ The heaven, even the heavens, are the LORD’s;

         But the earth He has given to the children of men.

I will be so glad when this month is over with, well ... maybe that is. I was informed by Cathryn that she plans to move out in mid July. I can't and won't be happy for her, she is way too young to be on her own, and it scares me half to death knowing that she will be living alone. I know I can't shelter my kids for all eternity, but at least let me have them longer than a month after graduation. I had to take Brendan to the Urgent Care Clinic today, he needs prayers ... he now has a perforation in his right ear drum, so now both of his ears has holes in them. The put him on 3 bottles of Amoxicillian & Tylenol with/Codiene for the pain. I wanted to rip the medical personel apart while I was there. I knew what was wrong with him, told the receptionist, they put his fathers name on his chart instead of his, so we had like 6 people that came after us, go in before ... because they called Douglas, and we didn't answer. Meanwhile poor Brendan is screaming & crying "Mommy my ear hurts!" over and over and over. These people are very young in there ... they must not even have kids. I think they need to be a little more sympathetic to the needs of children. One man was walking in, it looked like he was constipated. Now you are going to send him through, but not a 6 year old who has BLOOD draining out of your ear! Yes, I'm very upset with the medical personnel.

I still feel awful ... I had a hard time breathing last night, I think I have either an Upper Respiratory Infection, Bronchitis, or Pneumonia. Anyhow, if it's my time, the Lord will take me ... but I seriously thought I was going home last night! I took an Ambien at bedtime and began to feel more relaxed and not coughing so much! Well see what tomorrow has in store for me.

I know I now have high blood pressure. I've never had it before this tragedy, but I get really light headed at times, I sleep a lot, no exercise (which is unusual for me) My poor muscles ache, I am just falling completely apart. I sometimes wished it was me that died instead of Georgann, At least I wouldn't have to go daily on my crying spree. I don't bother to wear make-up anymore because it doesn't stay on my face very long.

Still no word from any of the detectives! This is driving me nuts ... I want this man or men caught so badly, it's now an obsession. And I want every inmate in there to know this bastard tied an 84 & 56 y/o women with cord, and raped the 84 y/o. I don't think too many men in there would take too kindly to having a grandmother figure beaten & raped. This monster is a sick SOB, who does not deserve to see the light of day.

It's hard to believe it's May, Cathryn graduates in less than 29 days, and I haven't even filled out her commencement invitations. I'm having a really hard time trying to concentrate with all the stress that's going on in my life. I'm sick again as well ... I was put on Leviquin 9 days ago for a sinus infection, and as of today; I'm beginning to get really bad again. If it's a cold, then it's going to turn into another sinus infection like it always does, or ... I have the flu.

I feel like a piece of me is missing. I miss Georgann so much, I can't stand it. I miss hearing her voice, her laughter, her bickering. I took so many things for granted before my sister was murdered. Life is too short the way I see it ... the Lord could take us away in an instant. I used to think that no one in my family would ever die in such a horrible manner, well ... my thinking became a reality. I also remember not long ago (before Georgann was killed) I prayed to the Lord asking him to help me do something about my husband. I am so tired of his alcoholism. He only drinks on the weekend, but it is way out of control. About a week later, the sheriff showed up at my house to tell me she was killed. Did the Lord take her home in order for my husband to come around and be there for me? It is hard to try to figure out what God's will is, we obviously will never know. I do however love the Lord with all my heart and soul, and that will never change, no matter how empty I feel inside. That would be selfish of me to want her all to myself, when Heaven is surely the best place to ever be. I do have peace knowing that she is no longer suffering, crying, needy, and smiling all the time. I am weak though, and I'm afraid I always will be. I'm sure over time, this feeling of loneliness and emptiness will ease somewhat, but I will never fully recover. It's as if I died right along side Georgann. Nothing can ever prepare you for a sudden death of this sort. June 13, 2007, our sister Kimberlea died from Sepsis, she had been ill a very long time, and we prayed for God's healing ... well he called her home, but he healed us, by helping to prepare us for her imminent death. It was extremely hard when she died, but the pain has become less. I loved Kimmie so much as well, but Georgann was closer to me. We grew up together, where Sharon & Kim had moved away to live with our dad after he and mom divorced. I only had Georgann for comfort. Now that I think about it ... I don't think I've ever told her how much I appreciated her. I'm sure she knows now though!
Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for being with me ... I know that I can only get through this tragedy with the love of your son. Bless me with strength to make it through the day, and knowledge, so that I may be able to witness in your name, and also courage, so that I may be able to face the enemy with the full armor of God, and bind him with the blood of Jesus Christ. Father, please forgive me of my sins, I confess to you that I have sinned many times, over and over. Help me to see where I err.

This I pray in the name of your precious son Jesus, Amen


Father, I do have a couple prayer requests ...
Please be with the SCPD & the FBI, help them to find this person before he maims or kills any other people, and please help me to forgive the man who murdered my dear sister. I know he obviously has a problem with woman, this had to of been planted in his mind over the years by possible abuse by his own mother? He does have many phsycological issues, but I still pray that he comes clean and confesses to you, and to you alone ... and then let the chips fall where they may. Your son is the only true judge & jury!

Today is Georgann's memorial. I'm not sure how I will be able to handle it. I was warned not to expect too much from the day, especially with people. When we arrived ... I was absolutely flabbergasted. There were at least 250 people that showed up at our church looking for closure. My sister most definitely impacted many peoples lives, and she loved each and every one of them. The hardest part for me was getting through the Powerpoint tribute Gary made of her photo's and the song with it "I Will Rise" Chris Tomlin.
Also, seeing Pricilla (Momsies) Georgann spoke of her all the time, and many other residents. I think I cried more because of the one person who truly did love them and treated them with the courtesy and respect they deserve. They will no longer have them with her (In the flesh that is).

You know, I just thought of this. Our fathers birthday would have been April 9th, and our sister Kim's birthday would have been April 15th. Well, our Great Aunt Helen Stoneburner died on April 15th, 1988, and Georgann died on April 6, 2009.  I think April will be my unlucky month, too many people I love were born in April, but are now dead, or they died in April!

Back to the service, I think my mouth dropped the moment I saw Flo Bright walk onto the sanctuary. I was not expecting her to fly in from Oregon. She did care for Georgann, but there were many problems. And then theirs Amneris. I feel just awful for what she's gone through. Especially being one of two that walked into Georgann's rented home and finding her dead on the floor. I mean ... I have nightmares about the torture she endured, but I can't imagine what Lori & Amneris are going through to have actually seen her laying there. I would have collapsed with coronary Heart Failure.
I hope everyone plans to light a candle in rememberence of all the victims of homicide, this will be held on April 28 from 6:00 - 7:30.


With the beginning and ending photo of this memorial tribute, Georgann was holding a cell phone in her right hand so I could hear our eldest sister, Sharon & Gary's wedding live since I couldn't be there (Georgann said she could hear me crying loudly into the phone & was praying no one else could hear when they were taking their vows.) We had just gone to Ohio (Georgann & I) to pick up our other sister, Kim's cremation remains (Kimmy had just passed away from Sepsis!)  I obviously couldn't afford another trip, since they both lived in Florida & me in Michigan.

I know that I'm writing most of these entries as I go, it's not likely I'll forget with all that has been going on.
Last evening, we stayed in Detroit at my Brother-In-Laws home so he could drive Cathryn and me to the airport. Now, I absolutely hate flying, and would have rather driven all night just to get there, but that was not an option in my mother-in-laws eyes! So we get to the airport and check our bags in, go through security ( We will save a special entry for that experiance alone.) They called us to board. When I had seen how small that plane was ... my nerves began to go into panic mode. I kept praying to the Lord though, that if it is indeed my time to come home, please let it happen quickly. anyhow, that flight was awesome ... no turbulance. We get to Washington/Dulles International and ran into my sister & brother-in-law who were flying on Southwest airlines, we were on United. Anyhow, we gave hugs, and ran off to find our terminal. Praise the Lord that he was with us, because we almost missed our flight ... I had my bible in one hand & bag in the other praying the whole time. We had to get on 2 different shuttles just to get to where we needed to be, and we barely made it on our flight. This was a huge jet, and I felt very comfortable flying on this plane. There were no storms, no clouds. Cathryn took photo's of the sun rising, it was breath taking! We land a few hours later, and ran into everyone that we needed to see ... that was truly God following us to where we needed to be. Sharon seemed to be a wee bit distant. I love her and all, and was truly happy that she made all the plans, but I would have liked to at least be involved one way or another.
We get to Harriette's home and eat lunch. She, Bro Glen & Doris were the perfect hosts. And Doris ... Cathryn and I fell in love with her. She's definitely a good ole "Southern Belle".

After lunch, we headed over to Georgann's place to remove all her personal belongings. The moment we walked through the front door, I was horrified. The least they could have done was clean up some of the blood where her body lay. I found myself crying more times than I could count.
Then we found photos of all of us as children. Her girlfriend, Amneris came over & my heart just went out to her. She was one of the people who first came on the crime scene. Although they give their input on what they thought may have happened, we told the detectives just so they knew to check up on those leads. There were quite a few people helping us, so we were able to get it all done in just a few hours. Cathryn took photos of everything, since most of the stuff was going to good will. Only memorobilia and special items would be coming home with us. I could see this was going to become incredibly rough.

Jesus gave us the power to overcome obstacles, and we did! We all went outside and looked like we were dusted top to bottom for fingerprints. We had like a black ink all over us.

Needless to say, we were exhausted when we arrived back to the house. We were also informed that another lady & her husband had been a victim in another Home-Invasion robbery. That makes a total of 10 ... I pray this stops soon!

I took Cathryn and Brendan to School that morning at 8:00am. I arrived back home around 9:00 and let the puppy outside to potty. She's running through the woods, and I'm hollering for her to come, well ... most pups have a mind of their own, and she definitely did not want to listen to her mama.

I realized I had a visitor ... not just any visitor, but a Sheriff. I was worried that either my kids had done something wrong, or I did unknowingly (Breaking the noise ordinance by screaming at CoCo to come!)

He had a serious expression on his face as he spoke. He introduced himself as the Under-Sheriff, Scott Wooters, and asked if my name was Marjorie. He stated that he was from the Leelanau Sheriff Department. I was polite to him and asked if he would like to come inside. He kept asking me if there was anyone here over the age of 18 (it really did not phase me, until he broke the news.)

I introduced him to my 20 year old son. The Sheriff told me that he was sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but the Sarasota County Sheriff Department had notified them that the body of a deceased woman was found, and her name was Georgann. Somehow they connected my name with hers as next of kin.

I could not breathe ... it felt like the air was being sucked right out of me. My son called my husband and he came home immediately. He then spoke with the Sheriff. We were told that an autopsy was being performed and the detective in charge of the case was present. "Once Again, it should have clicked when the Sheriff gave us the name & number for the Victims Advocate!" We were told that the detectives would be calling us around 3:00 pm with more info, and what the autopsy revealed.

2:30 pm ... we receive a call for the lead detective. She was very somber as she relayed the news to me. My little sister, Georgann Lee Smith, age 37 - was murdered. I was beginning to feel the floor give way, and told my husband to speak with her to make sure what I'd heard was correct. She stated to Doug that they were treating it as a Homicide. I then fell to the ground.

As of this time, there are no suspects into the beating of Georgann. I pray the Lord leads the Police to the monster who took her life!

I did find out later in the evening from my only surviving sibling that she was beaten with her own baseball bat that she always kept by her front door for protection.